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About Me Member Antagonist HeatherFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 10 Months
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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Nowhere. Nowhere at all.
  • Interests: I like drawing :F
  • Favourite movie: I decided that my fave movie is AI.
  • Favourite band or musician: All of them D<
  • Favourite genre of music: A lot of rock.
  • Favourite artist: http://akirakirai.deviantart.com/ ..hah.
  • Favourite poet or writer: http://gothiquehobbit.deviantart.com/
  • Favourite photographer: http://unused-nick.deviantart.com/
  • Favourite style of art: Animu
  • Operating System: Windows XP SP II
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano
  • Shell of choice: Conch~
  • Wallpaper of choice: HarukoHarukoHaruko
  • Skin of choice: I like my Merlitz Winamp skin.
  • Favourite game: Killer7! And No More Heroes!
  • Favourite gaming platform: Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...~
  • Favourite cartoon character: Midori from Lovelesss
  • Personal Quote: "If who I am is what I have, and what I have is lost, then who am I?"
  • Tools of the Trade: Tablet (Intuos3), paper, pencil, ink, Photoshop 7

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:iconsharknoseplz::iconsharkeyeplz:
:iconliu-barrowin::iconsharkbodyplz::iconsharktailplz: RAWR I'M A FUCKING SHARK AND I EAT CHU.

DESE BE MY BEST FRIENDS

:iconhikari-dareigan::icongazoogleheimer::iconradioactivemongoose::iconryuichix3::iconpaparoach23:

I STALK ZIS CLUB

:iconbishie-stalker-club:

ALSO

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no music is loud enough to drown out this thought.

Fri Nov 6, 2009, 1:52 PM
  • Mood: I'm Ignoring You
Don't say goodbye! Don't do it! I'm never going to leave! No, I'm not going anywhere.

Boy I'm in an odd mood. I feel depressed and anxious and tired and suicidal and angry at the same time.


Why~!? Who knows! There's too many problems with me! With being a depressed 14 year old! I'm all kinds of messed up in the head and I'm hardly ever happy without some sort of reason to be sad. If I'm happy, then there is something to lose. The only way to be happy is to be sad. Paradoxes are annoying in this way.

No, no. This is a terrible state of mind! I realize this, but it won't go away. How will it ever go away? I know it will when I get older, but will I make it then? Goddamnit. I hate deciding things for myself, I really fucking do. I wish I could just have someone tell me everything so I never have to worry. But it don't work that way, nope.

Don't ask me where I'm going because I could never prove that! Nothing I ever say has any justification so don't ever listen to me and don't ever take my advice. I'm easily broken, and never truly mended. Does that make ANY sense? No! Damnit, this is all crap!

How I EVER got this far is a mystery! I don't want to be here, I don't want to move forward. Can't I just live in the past; those past?

No. No no no no. This is also bad thinking. It won't go away but I want it to. No matter what, all I ever think about is that stupid person. I have terrible nightmares. I want to, but I can't get over it! Will I ever?

Bad thinking, bad. Stupid thoughts won't go away. I cannot be rational like I would hope to, I am actually most irrational? Oh look at me, at how impressionable I am. It's pitiful.

I wish I had something to say for myself, but all of these opinions are just jumbled amounts of others. I've truly no opinion of my own. No direction. Nowhere to go, so I just go after others ideas.

Why did I say all this? I don't know! I just needed to get it out! I hate this writing and no one's going to read it anyways.

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Comments


:iconlog-hokage:
Hey >u<; for now i shall have to fav you without comment. FOR NOW

Dx; gimme your facebook! D<

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owo;; So yea, My art should be up soon <33;
:iconangel-shark:
[link] C:

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My spoon is too big >C


-Why, I stalk crazy monks that play electric guitar. [BSC]
:iconlog-hokage:
:3 thank you dearie <3

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owo;; So yea, My art should be up soon <33;
:iconliu-barrowin:
YOUR DA ID DESCRIPTION

:iconsharkplz: :iconliu-barrowin:
I'M A SHARK
I'M A SHARK
SUCK MY DICK
I'M A SHARK

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Leave it to me
I will bring the room joy
Pink it to the max
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My spoon is too big >C


-Why, I stalk crazy monks that play electric guitar. [BSC]

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